Intro post goes here:

idefk.

In the last few weeks, especially in the past couple of days, I have come to terms with my irrational love for one Kobayashi Ryoko. She's really, ridiculously cute, is a good actress, and I love her voice and the way she talks. orz. I might ドキドキ a little for her. Which I don't even do for Ueda. Frick.

I think she needs her own LJ community. I would make one. Really. But I'd need a. an awesome layout, b. html skills, and c. more than one member (two if I forced Gen to join :D). So er. Really.

WHO WANTS TO HELP ME? :D

no i am not saving pictures of her and no i do not have the urge to spend all of my money on KERA magazines, what are you talking about? >.<;;

Ahaha, so I started Gachi Baka today in the early-ish afternoon. I am on episode seven. o.o Um. Yeah, I have not studied for psychology yet. I have not even started the section. I'm screwed, aren't I? :D;;

I may or may not be breaking the left clicker on my laptop's touchpad. It's old. I click a lot. I hope it's just wobbly and won't break. Really. My "o" key is also really oddly sensitive. The slightest pressure on it makes it type. Um. I think I need a new laptop. I've had this one for four years now. or was it three? I can't remember.

I want boys' jeans. They look so comfortable. ;-;
The remnants of black nail polish from a few weeks ago is shaped like Japan. Kind of. Or a bumpy banana; really, either works.

Er. I think I may need a life one of these days. Also, I really hope I can ride the train into the city so I can go to the Art Institute with Gen and Charlotte (who don't know each other but darn it I will force them to love each other even if Charlotte thinks Ueda needs a haircut and probably finds me and my fangirling over him a little bit odd if not annoying but gosh darn it they WILL LOVE EACH OTHER DO YOU HEAR ME D: ) sometime over the summer.

I had more to say. I forget what it was. Oh, right, vineyard fic is coming along slowly. In the twelve hours I have been awake, I have written a paragraph. >.>; Maybe once I establish an actual plot, it'll all come together and I won't be writing aimlessly. Like, you know, I always do.

I am clearly a big enough fangirl to get up at six-thirty in the morning after having gone to sleep four hours prior and stick around for an hour and twenty minutes of horrible-quality, lagging video with fuzzy audio for a pretty face, a drama that has choreographed basketball scenes and possibly a love pentagon. Fandom. How I love you.

At least the drama's interesting raw. Er, sort of. I'm going to download it when the actual video comes out, and then wait for subs. So I'll have seen it three times.

Euh, anyway, I also clearly am still somewhat  a Tenipuri fan because even mentions of actors that I remember from Tenimyu make me spaz. ^^; I need to catch up on the manga. Shin Tenipuri, was it? o.o

So I'm either going back to sleep or getting food and watching Gachi Baka. Or Code Blue. Or. Something. >.<;

Maybe I'll write more vineyard-fic. I like vineyards. I like France. Thus, it is set in Bordeaux. I'm researching the region and the wine for that reason. I now know more about wine than anyone other than wine connisseurs and makers should ever need to know. But that comes with the job. At least it's helping me practice my French? ^^;

Je parle comme un enfant, non?
Mais oui.

So. I suck at sleeping. :D

No, so I'm writing instead of sleeping at freaking five in the morning. My circadian rhythm's completely off. I might be going into REM rebound too because mother nature sucks. Oh well. Maybe I'll finish this. Maybe I won't. Either way, I'm spamming again. :D Sorry.

So Maplestory is fun. I need to level up more. Level thirteen in less than a day though. Yaaaaay. Maybe.

Fulfilling my own wishes for Ueda/Shige since the Jin/Ueda is finished. Next up may or may not be neurotic!Koyama. Depends.

Letter meme
1. Leave me a comment and I will give you a letter.
2. Then, write 10 things that you love starting with that letter.
3. Post the list in your journal.
4. Give out letters to those who comment in return.

funkysparks  gave me P.

1. Pineapple slices, but only cold and canned
2. Pi. As in Yamapi.
3. Pepsi, but only diet. In any flavored form.
4. Pocky, any flavor.
5. Presea (okay, so this is just my excuse to ninja in Tales of Symphonia)
6. Pirates. Arrgh.
7. Post-it notes. :D
8. Pretty boys. As in JE. XD
9. Pencils
10. Paper.

Now to play Tales of Symphonia for the first time in ages. Sis and I have invested so many hours in that game, it's not even funny. It's 2 AM and we've just started. Oh boy~ <3

Stolen from aokiyai 

Social Experiment: if you read this, even if we don't speak often, post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this paragraph on your own status and you will be surprised with what people remember about you.
<3

Also, happy birthday, Kato Shigeaki. Since it's technically the eleventh in Japan. You're Lizzie's favorite and one of mine, too. You're dorky and intelligent and your writing is fascinating. I hope you write a book. Or something. Bananas. :D You're elite, after all, so keep on chugging along. I won't picspam, but I kind of want to. I don't have enough pictures of you to do so though. ^^;

You're fabulously dorky.

Also, I'm downloading Maplestory since my friend Amanda has been addicted to it for a while now, and Sis says it's fun. I think I tried playing before, but alas, I failed. Try number two? :D;;

So today class was canceled. I had to stay there from 9:30 in the morning to 5:25 in the afternoon anyway since I found out about seven minutes before class was supposed to start, orz ;-;

But at about 10:30, M taught me some basic punching techniques. And then we went to the lounge where he taught me a bit more, like the elements and standing weaknesses and distances. And blocking. That's important. And the ninja flesh grab. Ouch. >.<;;

Anyway, so then he taught me a little bit of aikido, which is apparently quite water and patience oriented, so it's good for my kind of pace. I kind of have this thing where if the opponent lunge-punches, I block, turn my arm and slide down to the wrist, then place my other hand on the elbow and tug to pull them over, and then with the right posture and little strength, it's an effective hold. It was great fun, but I kept nearly sending him into poles and chairs when I knocked him over. ^^; I hope I didn't hurt him.

After that it was block, pin, pass, which is apparently good for speed. That's fun.

So then we had a few practice spurts, where he went semi-quickly and tried to knock me over with a few light hits and oh god, the kicking. ;-; After the first few, there was this really long one where I was freaking out because he just kept going and going and somehow I managed to utilize the pull and pin at the last moment to knock him down. o.o

He was really happy though, because it's my first time doing that kind of thing and I learned quite a bit (and I have potential?). Tomorrow I'm going to practice jab, cross, hook, hook-ing since it's my day off. And conditioning my knuckles so it doesn't hurt as much when I punch. ^^;

...I totally made up for the fries and chicken sandwich already, since I didn't really eat lunch and I spent four hours learning how to fight. TAKE THAT, CALORIES. :D

So I was writing and writing, and it got to a point where the words just kind of left some odd chasm in my brain where nothing seems to make sense and registered onto the document with mostly correct grammar, but I still have kinks to work out in my writing anyway, so that's okay. And so I finally finished what I started two days ago and was supposed to be a drabble. It's 4,190 words long. So much for drabbling. XD

...but writing Jinda. Oh god. ;-;

So at approximately 4:04 AM (or at least that's the time I wrote in the email to Gen) I finished writing it and went on to blog-stalk read the blogs of a couple random idols. Leah Dizon's blog is all food and make-up at the time of her pregnancy. I was hungry ;-; Thus, I successfully deprived myself of sleep until five AM, at which time I crawled into bed and couldn't fall asleep until 6. So, since I got up at 8 AM yesterday, I went for 22 hours without a single nap. o.o While that's not my record, it's certainly odd.

I got up less than two hours ago. You know what would be good?

Food (okonomiyaki supplies are always abundant in my house).

And a shower. >.>

Good morning, folks! :D

Dearest world, you drive me mad. You are filled with misunderstanding and pain, the tiniest fluctuations in life wreaking havoc upon the delicate equilibrium on which you stand. You are small-minded and cold-hearted, with no pity for the damned or reward for the givers. You slowly drain the life from those that walk upon your earth and do not let time pause for even a moment to prolong the tiniest fraction of happiness. You will not turn backwards, nor will you allow your inhabitants to defy you. You are agonizingly slow, hours passing without any indication of an end, and yet you speed ahead, moments rushing past in a blur of color and sound.

Dearest world, you make me happy. You are full of joy and love, the smallest change in atmosphere bringing smiles to your green face. You are open-armed and welcome anyone into your existence, with no discrimination on who enters or leaves. You spring all life into gear and allow yours to be slowly taken for the sake of those that stand upon your grounds, and the times of sadness are interrupted with joy. You let time move forward, and you are willing to keep a firm hand on the rules for the sake of others. You go at the same pace, allowing others to set their own and live each day as they see fit.

One side, one hand, just keep on spinning.

idek, this is what lack of sleep, psychology, and then two hours of talking to M does to me. He's a nice kid. I like him, even if he does tend to use my arm as a punching bag until I put my hands up and let him use those as targets instead. :D

Ah, the weekend was great fun. I've been meaning to post, but I'm sure all of your flists are clearer without my spam. how many of you actually read my posts; I'm curious. o.o

Rosaleyの脳内 <-- This is. So. Well, it's oddly accurate. The kanji, from the outside in, are "eating", "money", "playing" and "free time". Oh internetz, you blow my mind away sometimes.

Anyway, I've been desperately searching for Jin/Shige and Ueda/Shige fic lately. The pairings don't even make sense, but oh god, why is it so addicting? I can't find much, but does anyone want to write for me? Anyone? I will pay you back in love and sparkles (and drabbles?) :D

*flails* Lizzie. Oh god, so she was talking about the "Koi no ABO" performance when they're all wearing those white suits and she said "Yamafro".
I DON'T TEACH HER THESE THINGS I SWEAR. XD She's learning on her own. I'm so proud of her. My little Tego's all grown up and ready to poke fun at JE boys. *sniff* I'm like a proud mother.

Anyway, does anyone else get those times when they're contemplating something and that topic seems to suddenly pop up in their lives? Like, say you're watching a drama about marriage and suddenly it seems like everyone's getting married or talking about it. Anyone?

( Rose's reasoning (AKA her attempt to not feel so weird about it)! )
PS: I'm finally watching the KAT-TUN Real Face concert. Oh god, what were my objections to Ueda with black hair again? I DO NOT REMEMBER AT THIS MOMENT.

So. So. It's about 2:40 in the morning, about nine hours before I have to leave for Lizzie's, and I need at least six hours of sleep to function. So I figure as long as I sleep within two hours, I'll be fine, right? :D
...right.

Anyway, it is now July 4, 2009. Officially. Here, in Illinois, it is finally once again the birthday of a very, very special someone that I may owe my entire existence to. Unfortunately, it is not my mother or my father, but it is the country I was born, raised, and still live in. I wouldn't be me if I had never resided here.

The United States of America.

It's a place very close to my heart. I've always lived smack dab in the middle of it, just a little to the east and a bit north of the center of the country, but I figure it's not called the Midwest for nothing. It's a place filled with people, with conflict and culture and a lot of history crammed into about two hundred thirty-three years of established existence. Which really isn't very long a time.

Begun in the early 1600's by the English (or something along those lines), America has traveled a long way to get where it is now. It's seen a lot of turmoil and conflict, but it's had its happy moments sporadically along the way.

Happy birthday, America.

It's your birthday, so come on and sing~
Happy birthday, Akanishi Jin. Happy birthday, Masuda Takahisa. May you continue bringing hordes of fangirls to their demise with sparkles and dorkiness for many years to come.

In honor of Jin and Massu (and America), Lizzie and I are baking cakes tomorrow. It'll be a day late for the boys, but euh, we're kind of running on American time anyway. Anyway, but today for Massu I've looked at picspams and sufficiently flailed over him since he's not my favorite, but here's a picspam I found. *bias starts here:*

Now, for Jin, I'm taking time out of writing for Gen with the Gokusen II Reunion SP and geez nostalgia~~~ This was one of the first jdramas I watched, after the first season, and back then I didn't know what JE was, but I thought Hayato was pretty and Ryu was too skinny. orz orz orz how right I was. God, I love this series so hard. I need to rewatch it for, like, the third time? But anyway, Jin was probably my first favorite out of KAT-TUN for about five seconds before Ueda ninja-ed his way into my life.

( Obligatory Jin-adoration birthday post! )
...oh god, that was long. XD idek if I want to post it to a community because it's probably not as huge as most peoples' birthday wishes, but I think I'll keep it. <3
And now I've taken more time out of writing. Oh geez.

As of this moment, there are only forty-two minutes left of June. It's kind of boggling to think that my summer is a third over already. I haven't even done much yet! I need to go to Mitsuwa, I need to go to the beach, I need to draw and write and create more. There are so many things and not much time to do them.

Time seems to pass oddly quickly in the summer, no matter how little fun I happen to be having that day. I wake up, and my hours are spent in front of a computer screen or in a library cafe, sometimes in a cold classroom listening to a lecture on memory or sleep. I spend my time thinking, contemplating, flailing, fangirling. Writing, drawing, wishing, dreaming.

I'm not an average teenager after all. I don't spend my summer with my friends or go shopping often or going to the pool. I spend it sheltered in a sweltering little room in front of a screen that connects me to the rest of the world on a virtual level, reading and watching videos like so few others. I am glued to this black desk chair for hours at a time, and rarely move five feet from it in a day.

I haven't even practiced singing in a while. I hum if I bother to listen to music, or when I'm falling asleep to the guitar chords in "ordinary" and "Happy Music" or the slight crooning tunes of "White X'mas" and "春夏秋冬". I've hung out with a total of one person over this summer, when I promised so many others my time.

I've not even read the signatures in my yearbook yet.

What am I doing with my life?

The sky is so blue and pretty today~ It's only about eighty degrees Fahrenheit, which is absolutely fabulous for the end of June. There's also this lovely breeze and it's sunny even though it's nearly seven at night. So yeah, my window's open. <3

Plurk, I went to the town carnival today with Lizzie. I just went for the food, orz, but it was fun because we discussed JE, watched an episode and a half of Bloody Monday in her dad's apartment, ate fried foods and had fun. See, Lizzie and I always seem to manage to have a good time together at least on my part, whether we're just sitting around in a bookstore and talking or watching dramas and flailing together. I think I need more friends, but for now I'm happy like this.

Also, I got more writing done at last. Have I mentioned that psychology randomly gives me ideas to write fic? Not just JE fic either, but it kind of makes me want to revisit old fandoms that I never really got a chance to write for. Also, I just realized that I never finished any chaptered fics. Ever. My only hope was (and still is) oneshots or drabbles. Oh geez.

And writing's not the only thing I got done. For the longest time, I haven't drawn or painted digitally, and so today instead of doing my psych homework like I should have, I drew. Drawing makes me really, really happy for some reason. The time just flies when I draw. I spent two hours drawing today, and it seemed like it went by in a flash. It will always be one of my favorite hobbies. <3

( Doodle away~ )
*considers posting doodles to the community*

*decides it's a bad idea because it's unpolished like whoa. flist?*

I love memes~ I didn't really ever look for JE memes, but a;ldjgsf;klsfd CAN I SAY THAT THEY'RE FUN? I have too much fun with these, obviously |D

( My Johnny's family~ )</div>
( My JE soulmate?! )</div>

...yeah. Back to Maou. XD

MAOU. OH MY GOD, MAOU. why did I not finish this drama back over spring break?

1. Ohno. Oh my god, why did I think he was creepy when I first started this series? He's really pretty in a suit; better than a bear/acorn costume any day. Have I mentioned that I like lawyers? No? Well, I love lawyers. Not always evil ones, but Naruse is an exception.

2. The plot. <333 Oh god, the plot is just a;lgjalsgf amazing.

3. Kobayashi Ryoko. I may or may not have this very blatant crush on this girl. She's just so cute and as Shiori she's just adorable. I EVEN ICONED HER. It takes a lot of love for me to icon someone because I do not like iconing. (I needed an icon of her and was too lazy to find one. Does she have an LJ comm? because she needs one and if she doesn't have one I swear I will create one. Someday.) But she's pretty and I love her voice. Oh goddd <3333333

4. Toma. I loved him in Hana Kimi, and I do think he's a very good actor, but I think I like him in happier roles? ^^; Don't shoot me, but really, seeing him angry makes me sad because he has such a nice smile. Serizawa's an interesting character. I like detectives too~

...yeah, I'll finish the last four episodes tomorrow when it's not 2 AM. CHEERS, KIDS. <3

I finished Koizora, the movie. <3

Miura Haruma in Hiro's role was amazing~ Seto Kouji doesn't quite fit the character, I think. He's too cute and round, while Miura's a lot more sharp, like Hiro should be. But I do think Mizusawa Erena was a good Mika, and beats out Aragaki Yui by... not much. But I think I like Erena's voice more. I mean, it's a little softer and not quite as sharp when she's crying. They look similar too, so it was a good casting choice for the drama to pick Erena. Either way, they're cute~

God, they cut quite a bit out of the movie to make it all fit into two hours. Like the hat scene D: But I did like the way they orchestrated Mika and Hiro's meeting in the movie better than the drama. <3 I do think that the relationship had to move too fast for the movie though.
...also, wtfffff library. Those poor books.

I teared up a little at the end. Fully mostly because it's about 2:30 and I was yawning, but still. I still can't cry at movies or dramas though, especially recently.

I also spent the day watching Cartoon KAT-TUN instead of Konkatsu episode 6, which I will do tomorrow. Naugh, I also need to do my psych work tomorrow. And go to badminton. And all that jazz, so. Yeah. D:

*sigh* NOW TO BED.

Psychology, once you make a friend, starts to be fun. F is nice. So is the teacher. Thanks to everyone that consoled me about it when I was worrying. You guys were right; everything turns out okay in the end. <33

Butttt it doesn't help when you're learning about B. F. Skinner and his rat boxes and then suddenly think of sadistic little Tegoshi doing that experiment. Oh, fandom.

This, however, is the first time I've fallen so hard into a fandom. Maybe because it's active and these are living, breathing boys and not just cartoons? Even with Tenipuri (which was my biggest fandom) I didn't connect it to everything I came across. I'm not sure if this is normal or if I'm just a reallll fan, but when I'm reading my chem book and see the word "pyrite (fool's gold)" and think "Oh, I should cap Queen of Pirates concert..." I know it's bad.

...anyway. So my mom walks in at 9 AM and says that she's taking the day off. I'm already dressed and ready to go to class. So I get to stick around for another hour and a half, go to class, and then come home and relax do work. Thank god for off days.

Maybe I can fit in an episode of Maou.

( Rambling about Uta no Oniisan... )

( Also, Ueda in Konkatsu caps )

YOU ARE ALLOWED TO SHOOT ME FOR GETTING CAP HAPPY. This isn't even half of the Ueda ones. I also need to cap episode four more on VLC because there's also a lot of Ueda + plaid pants.

Now, to study chemistry, watch Cartoon KAT-TUN, and poke at my torrent for Konkatsu episode 6 at the same time. :D?

Sorry, Yamapi, I think Ryo might be my favorite now. ^^; He's just too snarky not to love.


NEWStory. Nishikato abounds. I am one happy fangirl, and I'm not even done capping disc one yet. (Well, in thirty seconds I will be, but a;lskflgsfj still.)

Also, bought new pants at last! They didn't have the jeans I like, but I got a pair of denim bermuda shorts and a pair of plaid ones. And I got a dress :o It's cute and flowery and totally not me, but I still like it. I can de-girlify it a little with a sweater though, so it's all good.

Finally, summery clothes. <3

(Also, "ordinary" might just beat out "Kakao" as my favorite NEWS solo. o.o; Unexpected development much?)